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CASSIOPEIA ROSALIND DAWN  THE BASIC INFORMATION FULL NAME Cassiopeia Rosalind Dawn NICKNAMES Prefers being called Cas, but everyone calls her Cassie regardless. GENDER Female AGE & BIRTH Nineteen, October seventh, 1994 SEXUALITY Heterosexual CLASS Lower class PLAYED BY Emilia Clark THE PERSONALITY For those who don't know, agoraphobia is generally accepted as the fear of leaving ones house. More generally, it is the fear of open spaces, spaces in which escape is not easy as well as a number of complications. It is a fear of anything outside of the sufferers comfort zone, and thus many sufferers do stay inside their home in order to avoid the stress of the outside world. It is accompanied by panic and anxiety attacks, often recurring if the same situation was met more than once. When she was younger, Cas would panic anytime she was in a crowded area, or under enough stress. In schools and malls, places where a situation could be unpredictable or have a chance of going out of control, she would panic. She had to live her life a very particular way, and had certain rules she would have to follow by or she wouldn't feel safe. The doctors explored her for a possibility of OCD as well, but her actions were entirely unpredictable. It wasn't about being obsessive, it was about being safe. If a room exceeded a number of people that went over the ratio in her head of people to space required for them, she would leave to avoid stressing her emotions too much. After the age of fourteen, Cas could no longer take tests with other students, often getting panic attacks halfway through due to the stress of being in a room with so many other people. It wasn't as disabilitating as it was with some, but it still affected her life. Home was where she liked to stay, often only leaving to go to school. It helped that her family generally kept her and her brother within the household. Through her teenage years, however, Cas learned one way to smooth down her panic in social situations. Alcohol, as was common, loosened her inhibitions and allowed her to enjoy a large social situation without much discomfort. The more she drank, the more comfortable she was. It wasn't until later that Cas actually started trying to combat her fears by herself. A few years after the climax of her life, she's been doing better. Cas will still get panic attacks rarely and feels she has to live her life by certain rules, but she is slowly letting go of those with the help of a monthly therapist. Cas is able to happily step outside of her home. As well, she has recently acquired a job at a restaurant as a waitress in order to help with her aversion of social situations without any form of alcohol. Outside of this factor of her personality, which has always played a big role in her life, Cas is overwhelmingly kind hearted. If a person can catch her one and one, she will happily talk to them with ease, often its hard to tell she has any form of fears, especially now. Many people would describe her as sweet, and she's willing to lend an ear to anyone. Despite her own short comings, she will try to help people through their own personal problems. Her own are hardly that disabilitating anymore. On the opposite side of this, though, Cas sometimes can get too attached to the people she talks to. As a child, she suffered from separation anxiety, which grew into her intense fear of leaving the house. Her parents were nothing but caring, it was a purely mental problem. She has a fear of people leaving her and never coming back, and this can harm her emotional relationships. She will try to only form a shallow connection with people in order to better her psychological well being, but the moment a person is nice to her, she will feel like she owes something to them. FAMILY TIES & HISTORY MOTHER Carolyn Anastasia Dawn FATHER Cameron Teller Dawn SIBLINGS Cauis Hunter Dawn (brother, 23 years old) OTHER Domino (short hair male grey tabby cat, 3 years old, adopted from shelter) STORY Murder is the brutal ending of an individuals life, but what happens when one has not yet had a life to live? Cassiopeia has always lived in a strict household. Her parents meant the best for her and her brother, but they've always had to abide by the rules. It was never anything more than the regular family. Curfew in effect at ten o'clock when Cas hit seventeen, chores every week, but they got allowance. There was one computer in the home, one television, and only certain times the siblings could be on either. Her mother and father believed in strong family values, games nights, raising their children proper. And it did turn out well for Cas and her brother. Both had good grades, impeccable manners, and a soft caring way about them. Their parents were only lucky neither was a rebel, though, in the house they ran, it would have been hard to be one. But Cas was lucky in the fact that she never wanted to drink, do drugs, have sex as an effect of her agoraphobia. She always valued the bond she had with her family, her parents never treated her wrong or out of term, for what she knew was normal in the world. It wasn't impossible to get permission from them o do things, as long as it was wholesome and didn't intervene with family time. It wasn't always easy though. Cas was pressured to do well in school, to make the right choices. Her parents were always around to help, though. If there were a decision to make, her parents would let their opinion be known, and theirs was always the right way to go. Cas never hid anything from her parents, they encouraged daily family discussions. Cas should have known something was wrong then when she got a boyfriend at sixteen and never told her parents. She had never hidden anything from them, but this was different. Though, it had started before this. One tiny lie to her parents about a slumber party with her friends lead to this, the first crack in the foundation leading to the splitting or an entire home. It wasn't that Cas did not appreciate her parents dictation of her life. Rather, her friends pressured her into this. They, though only sixteen, had started going to parties. It was a regular part of a teenagers life. Cas had never felt left out of this tradition, even when hearing about all the stories from the nights. The thought of a party petrified her, though her friends told her time and time again that they were fine. Most of the time, no one really understood her fear, not even her closer few friends. Cas never knew anything besides her home on the quiet Friday nights, and never wished for anything new. After enough pressure though, Cas gave in, deciding to try the fun her friends boasted they always had despite her fears. It would be good for her, she supposed, to try. As long as she remembered to take her medication. It was a common case of peer pressure, and that was when Cas met Alex. That night, as far as Cas remembers, they didn't have sex, but boundaries were crossed. This was also the first night that Cas discovered that mixed with her medication, alcohol broke her past her fears and allowed her to have fun. Cas and him started dating a few weeks later, and Cas never told her parents. She wasn't aware that the lie she told was spinning out of control until too late. She only knew her parents would not approve of Alex, a young man who rarely attended class but was so attractive it didn't matter. She was young, stupid, and convinced herself she was in love. It wasn't long after that the two of them started having sex either. Apparently, all of Cas's friends were doing the same, though many were still virgins and only boasted of sex to fit in with the crowd. The world of high school was a torrent of rumors and lies, and Cas was too innocent to tell the difference between the two. It was the classic case of boy meets girl, girl falls in love, and boy only really wants her body. The lie she had told her parents seemed to settle its ugly head as her and Alex were going strong, and she only had to worry about being caught. He would drag her to parties, get her drunk, and mostly, Cas couldn't remember when or where they had sex. She was descending into a pit of madness, of alcohol and bad choices. Her fears felt like they were dissolving but she was only fooling herself into believing that. Her grades were starting to slip and her parents were taking notice, pushing her to do better, keeping her in the house more often to do her homework. Alex was pushing her more to sneak out, and the stress was getting too much. Slowly but surely, her panic attacks came back with the stress. Their relationship quickly turned into quick, sweaty sessions in cars, behind homes, in his bed if she could get to the chance. They rarely talked. It wasn't a surprise, really, when Cas found out she was pregnant then. It only marked the fall of everything she had thought she once knew. Being the girl she was, Cas knew the moment the little pink plus appeared on the pregnancy test that she would keep the child. She'd never considered herself against abortion, but she didn't have it in her to kill the life that was now forming inside of her body. There were too many possibilities for the little ball of cells. The other people in her life, however, would have a very different opinion. Cas never told Alex about the baby, which was surely his, but only told one friend, needing to get the tale of her chest. As these things typically go, her friend blabbed to another and soon it seemed the whole school knew. Including Alex. In his typical fashion, Alex denied the kid was his, calling Cas a whore and a cheat, and broke things of within the hour. He was the first to tell her she should get rid of the child, obviously fearing proof that he was the father. The advice to just 'take care of it' were never ending though, as she heard stories of teenagers lives being ruined for her and the kid. Cas didn't know how to tell her parents, but she didn't have too. In Caroline rumors always spread fast. The decision to have Cas abort her child was instantaneous as dictated by her parents. They gave Cas no option in the matter, she was still sixteen, nearly seventeen. She could have easily fought for her rights as a person, but she felt all her battles were lost the lie had finally caught up to her, bigger and uglier. It was nothing short of murder for Cas, the taking of the life she was harboring, but she did not stop her parents. It was abort the child or be kicked out of her home. She chose the easier option, or so she thought, and gave up her kid. Of course, it didn't make everything better. After learning about the lies Cas had produced, her parents had her on constant lock down. She was no longer allowed to see her friends – the ones she still had after her pregnancy - and was required to come home straight after school. Cas had never felt so violated in her life than when she was forced to get an abortion, every right she had had been crossed. It was hard to feel any empathy towards her parents, or worse towards herself. She had gotten herself into this situation, through lies and a teenagers stupidity. It had only been a year from the day she met Alex to when she found herself standing on the edge of an overpass in Caroline, watching the empty road beneath her. Cas was never depressed, but it felt like her best option. If her parents could kill her unborn child, she could kill herself. It was only the unexpected aid of a good Samaritan that edged her of that overpass, talking to her not about her problems or what had happened, but like she was a human being. She never got the young mans name, but she felt she owed him her life. Two years after the mess that was her high school years, Cas is in a very different place. She graduated early, picking her grades of the level they had reached and gathering enough credits. She did it only to please her parents, and to leave her home. Her parents could not stop her, as long as she had an education Cas could do what she wanted. It almost seemed they wanted the bad influence out of their lives and into the streets. Moving out of the comfort of her house was one of the hardest thing for Cas to do, but she knew she had to better her life. Cas had turned her life around after the incident on the overpass, realizing ending her life would not validate what happened to her. She moved on, as much as she could. For a while she lived with her older brother, working any place that would hire her and not be impeded by her anxieties, until she got enough money to rent a small apartment. From there, Cas has been living. She stays in touch with her parents, still reluctant to draw their hold away from a daughter they once loved. ALL ABOUT YOU ALIAS heatherrrrr AGE & EXPERIENCE 21 and like nine? ANYTHING ELSE A WILD FEMALE APPEARED AFTER ALL, WE'RE ACTORS ON A STAGE |
